I mean c'mon, the guy your dating is 5 years younger than you. And I've put myself in her shoes and i think I would do the same as her. the girl i love can never feel the same about me. Damn this is gonna sound extremely faggy and it's gonna go against everything i believe in but. I always find myself faced with this problem just when I think I've dealt with it. I don't know why but it's becoming more and more. It's cause of something she said to me today but it's making me more depressed. I really hate myself sometimes, purely because of my age. I'm losing it, my world seems to be collapsing right before my eyes. It's been a long time but i'm really stressed out right now so i can't think of any other way. Seriously and i thought we lived in a fucking multi-cultural country. Anyways i was telling one of my tutor's that my girlfriend was in China and how technology helped us maintain our relationship and then he heard and as i was going home he goes like "So, is your girlfriend mando or kanto?" And i thought well okay this guy is white so i guess he doesn't know that much and i told him my girlfriend could speak mando and wen zhou hua and then, THEN he says the funniest thing i have heard in ages: "Oh yeah? I got a friend who's Chinese." Sarcasm. I have a bit of a story to share about one of the kids i call him the Aryan because he has the true values of an Aryan and his name is German too. I love the ignorance of everyone though and in particular these 4 kids from Penrith who seem to think they are cultured. Uni is just uni there aint really nothing special about it oh wait no i go to UWS yeah apart from the Nazis and shit its a pretty good uni. I'm mostly training power now because its the missing link for me but i am so retarded when it comes to power. I'm sort of beginning to understand my dance though because i guess i'm at that period now when i really start to get into the scene. I've been winning battles and damn it feels good. Me and one of her friend's really are similar however i don't know if he's brought that up.Īs for my bboying, i feel as if i'm getting better day by day well not so much now but very recently. I feel a bit sad though because i know i have on numerous occasions pissed Cindy off for making certain comments about her friends because of their status but i have no regrets, what i say is what i feel from the heart. I guess thats what happens when your girlfriend works at hooters though, you get a shitload of douchebags. Basically, all middle aged businessmen are perverted and need to be either killed if they don't have any children or castrated if they do because they all cheat. Hahahahahaha it makes me laugh as i'm writing this because as i read what i've written i realize the insanity of all of it. Businessmen to be exact and i find that my views are a bit. are you alright?" i appreciate your concern but goddamn choose a side, don't sit on the fucking fence.Īnyways, i've developed a particular hatred for middle-aged men. And a PARTICULAR person (i think you know who you if you were to read this although you wont since you don't know i have a blog) says the funniest shit, she says it's normal when its happening to someone i know and when it happens to me "oh. And i HATE it when people say "Oh don't be surprised, It's normal(正常)" i swear to God i fucking hate that so much because even if that shit is normal, at least pretend to be shocked and pretend that it isn't normal. Her too since alot of her co-workers are screwing more than 1 person, sometimes even more than 1 person at the same time which is. I don't want to live in this world at times but i don't really have a choice now do i? In particular i keep finding myself being faced with that issue of. I just mean the many pathetic acts people seem to commit these days. Not so much me as i'm being exposed to the filth of this world.
We adapt fast like most but alot of shit still hits us hard. Alot of issues are coming at us and in a way i sometimes feel as if we're both kids lost in a busy, scary city. Maybe i give too much of myself up to her haha i mean i stay up till 2 AM sometimes 4 AM just for her cause of her work.
My life sometimes seems to revolve around her though and when i think about it it sort of does. I'm going to see her in 18 days and boy i can't wait. We've been through alot of rough times but we still managed to stay together in the end. Me and my girlfriend, we're still together. My life hasn't changed that much but when i think about it it has. Its the 12th of June 2:05 AM as i write this, for most people you would be sleeping but for me this has become normal. This is going to be a loooong ass post so it might get boring. I haven't posted in over 2 months so i thought i would post since i can't focus on studying haha.
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